BUNCO!!!

So tonight was bunco night! yay! My once a month treat out for myself!! It was much needed! I don't know why but this week has been a rough one on keeping up my motivation....Lets not even talk about what I ate today! I didn't think it was horrible until I found out that subway cookies are 420 calories for only 2! UGH!! horrible! But I did my shed and shred so I guess those cookies evened out my day. Still not happy with myself though! 

Aubrey says "WHAT?!?! Don't be unhappy mama." lol

Anyways back to me!! So today I did horrible at eating right but I did do something right!! I started a weight loss challenge!! We will meet every Thursday for 8 weeks which now means I will be weighing myself twice a week once on Tuesdays and once on Thursdays but at least it will keep me motivated!  While at the meeting I had a tea and that's the reason I am up right now posting, ahh if it wasn't so cold I would totally go for a run! I gotta get healthy and I need to get my whole family healthy so that James and I can live to see some great grand babies....(Am I crazy for already thinking about great grand babies... nah lol) Speaking of babies... Aubrey just woke up again.... I guess she was sassy for James tonight :( Poor James just wanted to come home and rest and I tried to fill her up so she would just sleep but I guess that didn't happen.

This was my outfit for Bunco tonight! I got the tank top and sweater thingy at Marshalls! I love that store! I did pretty good for not trying them on and just buying them! I look forward to bunco every month since it my only me time!  I love hearing about what my friends are up to and how everyone is doing since I only ever see them at bunco.  I didn't win any prizes though! Super bummed! But I had a wonderful time! I don't think I have laughed that hard in a while!  I seriously need more time away from Aubrey! As mean as that sounds I think I would be a lot happier if I just had some more time for myself without her! I find that I am the happiest when I get home from bunco and see my little girl and of course James but he is usually asleep by the time I get home! Well for all of you that know Bunco its basically a reason for friends to get together drink and basically gamble.  Well our group of friends are super serious about winning so our games usually end pretty quick! 

Bunco is usually the night I get to have a little fun with some wine and drinks but not this Bunco! I forgot to mention that this year for every month I will be giving up something that I love and this month was Alcohol. Not that I'm an alcoholic or anything but I do like to drink so why not test my motivation by giving up drinking a beer or two a few nights a week.  Seriously if I can keep this going I think I will keep my motivation up to keep working on a more healthy me.  I have no idea what next month will be...maybe candy but then its valentines day so that would suck!  I'll have to keep working on ideas for next month. 

 It is such a challenge to stay motivated! I am so glad to have friends and family to help me stay on track but it is seriously so difficult! I had to text Tricia today to tell her about how gross I felt about having a muffin top!(reason for the baggy tank top! lol) I don't know why but that seriously makes me want to stop trying... but then I think its not going to get any better if you stop....so I have to keep going! 

This weight loss challenge will help because they do measurements and everything.  Right now my metabolic age is 46! wtf! I seriously hope that goes down! It will be a struggle to lose this weight but dang it I am going to do it! I just hope I don't lose my breast milk while trying to lose weight! I would hate to try to wean Aubrey right now she is such a little sassy girl I don't think she would like formula at all! Plus its way better for her to breast feed! 

I took this within minutes of coming home, She just wanted the comfort of mommy! I just wish she would have slept for James! I have a feeling its going to be a very long night! She used to be such a good sleeper but now she is horrible! I hope she will get better at sleeping without having to nurse her to sleep. I can not for the life of me let her cry it out! It just isn't in my nature to let my baby cry! I tried once and she scared me so bad because her nose was so congested from crying that she couldn't breath for a few seconds so no more crying it out that was scary! I guess I'll just be a mommy that caves in but oh well, maybe for our second child it will be different. 

Here's my fitbit page to keep me motivated I need to share it!

http://www.fitbit.com/user/23Z69Z

Is post nesting a thing?

 Today was an insane clean up day! When Aubrey decided we were both getting up at 7 am, I decided to let her play and I would tackle her clothes. I boxed up all of her 3 month clothes and any outfits she wasn't going to wear anymore. So her closet now looks like this

When she was born her closet and that dresser were full of clothes, now the dresser is completely empty, but I feel like she still has enough clothes to get her by and I'm sure she will be getting more soon.  I don't even look at clothes for me anymore! It is so much fun to buy her outfits and its way cheaper! lol

Well I got done with her room and decided that James and I needed help in the cleaning of our room and clothes so I tackled that as well.  We need to make a trip to goodwill but now I seriously feel like I have no clothes! 

I need a new outfit for Bunco tomorrow night! haha! If I'm lucky maybe I can go out and get a cute shirt or something tomorrow.  Along with Bunco tomorrow, I am starting a weight loss challenge at Edge Nutrition here in Lodi, that is where Nicole and I are addicted to getting shakes after our jogs/walks.  I am excited to start this challenge its $25 for 8 weeks and who ever has the best results at the end of the challenge gets the pot of money.  The way my weight hasn't been coming off I doubt I will get any money but I will definitely try!

Well while I was completely cleaning out my closet, dresser and all of James clothes I found this...

Awww! its the note he wrote to me on our wedding day! He was so sweet... even though I out did him and got him a card that day! :) haha. If you know James and I, we are super competitive when it comes to out doing one another.  He wins now because I'm not working but that's only a technicality. :)

Well After that I also cleaned my kitchen..... long over do!  I really wish I could get a one time super duper good cleaning of this house done.  I need to see how much that would cost! It would be so nice just to have it done once and then keep up on it.

 
My little lady loves her tongue right now! And of course her giraffes but the one toy that my mom and I just got her was this little monkey (Aubrey picked it out when I held it in front of her.) This little monkey has two rings and when you pull them it plays a song and oh my god that is now her favorite toy! I'm going to start letting her pick out toys at the store from now on! The smile she gets on her face is priceless when I give her that monkey. 

Then came nap time for Aubrey and me still being nasty from cleaning decided I needed to work out so I did my Jillian Michaels video that James got for me for Christmas. It was really good!

Can't you tell how excited I was to work out! haha! Today was really hard to get myself to do it but now that its over I am so glad I did because I gotta stay on track and be the best me this year! 

Buh Bye hair tie

So we all know the hair tie or rubber band we all seem to love and hate at the same time, for starters you can never find a good one when you need it for your hair, or they break or never hold your hair up where you want it to stay but you always need them to throw your hair back! 

Well I don't know about any other mom's but I used it to loop around my button on my pre pregnancy jeans so I could wear them for a longer time when I was pregnant.  Well after I had Aubrey which was in June, I didn't really need it for my pants because I was still wearing my maternity shorts and capris, and thank goodness I never threw away my fat girl shorts because those came in handy.  Well as the season changed and I started shrinking (only a tiny bit) my fat girl pants (size 12) were too big.....ya know like saggy butt (mom jeans) which were a no go.  So I carefully pulled up my size 10 jeans and almost had a melt down....I could not for the life of me, button them! ugh! So I dreadfully found a hair tie to loop around and keep my pants up! Well yesterday I comfortably wore my smallest size 10 jeans without having to use the hair tie! Yay me! They actually fit now! So I think it is safe for me to finally.... finally go out and buy myself some new jeans, even though I still want to be smaller.

Well anyways today is January 8th which is the second Tuesday of the new year! So I weighed myself in the morning right after waking up and feeding Aubrey because I know that milk makes my weight go up! haha! 

So as you can see I have lost basically 2 pounds. Which were the two pounds I gained over the holidays, So this week I am stepping my game up! I went on to my fitbit profile and started a goal for myself, lose 1 pound a week.  It came back with how many calories I can eat in a day and it changes everyday based on how much activity I do. 

So today, I went on a 4 mile jog with my friend Nicole and we basically walked the last mile so 5 miles total! that upped how many calories I can eat because I burned more! And yes I jog while pushing Aubrey in the stroller, I have yet to go by myself! I feel like its so easy to have my water and my phone on the stroller than carrying them.  I need to eventually get a runner's belt that holds water so I can go running on my own.  Nicole and I did a great job today! She was on vacation for over a week and is still faster than me! But she keeps me motivated to keep working on my fitness! Nicole has a two year old son named Hunter! He is the cutest little boy ever! My father in law already joked about Hunter and Aubrey getting married to make Nicole and Ryan part of our friend/family line....I'll explain that next time. haha 

  

This is Aubrey and I after our jog and after feeding her, she is such a happy girl today! She just squeals and squeals! I think she thinks that my soap opera, Days of our lives, is the best thing ever because she will just sit there and squeal at the tv while I watch it! And judge me all you want....yes I let my daughter watch tv! I thought when I first had Aubrey oh my goodness I'm never going to be one of those moms who let their babies watch tv...well guess what I am! haha! It's not like I let her watch a million hours a day or anything, the tv is only on during Days of our lives and if she is being sassy about taking a nap I turn it on cartoons so she can be distracted until she falls asleep. Which she is peacefully napping right now! So I better take advantage of it and get some stuff done!! I like it when my days are full of productive rather than being bored which I find myself a lot lately, since the hubs works a lot. 

This is my little sassy girl this morning before our jog! love that face! 

So why start a blog?

Why did I start a blog?  My friend Tricia Kellas started her blog this year and it got me motivated to start my own, You should check hers out newmomnewjeans.blogspot.com. She is way more awesome than me! :) She called me one day in 2011 after not really keeping up with each other except for on Facebook and the random text, well that phone call was to tell me that her and her husband had just bought a house and guess what.... they were pregnant! Little did she know I had been trying to get pregnant myself and two weeks later I was the one calling her to let her know I was pregnant! What is even more crazy is that our birthdays are only a day apart so we thought it was pretty cool that we were both pregnant at the same time! She was due before me but little did we know Aubrey would make her appearance 5 1/2 weeks early! So Aubrey is three weeks older than Carter.

Even though she is older that Carter.....as you can tell Carter is way bigger than her! haha! That picture was taken when Aubrey was just about 2 months and Carter was about a month.

Well today Tricia weighed in and lost a ton of weight for her first week on weight watchers!! good job girl!! I haven't gotten back on weight watchers yet but I myself am going to weigh myself every Tuesday in 2013 I already have my calendar on my bathroom mirror to write my weight on! Ill post a picture of that tomorrow!

Anyways so Tricia and I have been friends for about 10 years now...wow that is crazy! We have constantly been telling each other about new items and on Christmas my sister got me a Fitbit zip which is pretty amazing! I wear mine everyday and it tracks steps, calories, food intake, miles and it can help you lose weight online on their website plus it updates through my iphone as well. You can also compete with friends! Well I can't wait for Tricia to get hers so we can keep track of each others progress.

This is Aubrey today giving me her daddy's look. hahaha. Call me crazy but her hair is just long enough to put a bow in so guess what.... yep she is going to start wearing bows, because no matter how much freakin pink she wears someone will still say oh what a cute baby boy!!! ugh!! If you don't know what sex the baby is you are complementing, don't say boy or girl! It is beyond annoying to have people call her a boy, I would rather have them take two seconds before they speak to realize she is a girl because she is covered in pink! Or at least ask me whether she is a boy or a girl.

"Myself"

"Hi! I'm a mom"...oh wait... that's right.... I'm supposed to say "Hi! I'm Jacci." Right now I feel like Jacci is just a mom, so how do I intend on finding "myself" all the while being a mom? I intend to find out.

That's me on a daily basis now, trying to get fit after having gained 50 pounds while being pregnant with the most awesome baby girl, Aubrey Paige Kahler. She is 6 months old (born on June 19th 2012).

To be honest I have been on a weight loss journey my whole adulthood, While I succeeded at losing 24 pounds on weight watchers before I got pregnant with Aubrey I still wasn't at my ideal weight or health. 

As of right now I weigh 160 pounds and for my height 5'3 that seriously puts me in the overweight section. I would like to be closer to 130 pounds but for right now I am shooting for 140 pounds so I can be in the "normal" range of the BMI chart, and I know I know it isn't all about weight v. height blah blah blah but see the thing is I know if I really worked at it I could and I will hit my goal. 

2013 will be my year and I have a feeling it really will be, I am finally a mom which I have dreamed about being since I was a little girl, but when did being a mom take over from being Jacci? Honestly, I think it happens to every stay at home mom. So this is it, my truth about being a stay at home mom trying to figure out myself while trying to stay sane.